stop gap.

five years.

It has been a long time since I have had an empty cursor on the page. The challenge of it blinking at me is one that I like for a multitude of reasons. I feel stripped back writing this, the lack of comfort in this practice tells me I am stepping in the right direction. 

I am not the same person I was five years ago, I am a more true version of myself. Am I the truest version of myself? No. Am I on my way to becoming truer? Yes. 

Going through my old posts last night the thing that was clear to me was my uncertainty, I was trying to be this version of myself that I was not. There were highlights of authenticity as well as low lights of fear, self judgment and a sense of being lost. This is why I removed them - 175 posts gone. 175 posts that were a reminder of the pain I have suffered from being lost, a pain that I have left go of and am moving on from. 

What remains are my inspirations because these have not changed, I smiled at the irony of this. How I interact with them has but the content its self has remained. 

I am giving myself no barriers to what this will be for me, what this will look like or pressures on how I will interact with this. It is my corner of the internet that I hope will empower me to step back into my creative and project out what I think and feel within. 

So I might see you in another five years or in five. Whichever option it is, I am okay with it. 

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